suffering..alone....

i wait..

i donno for what..

i go to the terrace every evening see the lights burning in the mountains from there,

i know she lives there, i know she might be there on her terrace,

everyday i wake up feeling unwanted...

the sheets are cold, she is happy wt someone, they live happy..

and every moment is killing me slowly...

how much can i suffer..i m not sure

everything i wish is a blur, only she is, such a dream, so real, yet so not...

pain is a wonderful thing, it raises ur senses a bit more..,

and leaves u reeling, i wake and i sleep missing her,

or someone like her, the pain takes me back to my childhood

if someone stabbed me, i would'nt be hurt, alone in a house, alone n enjoying the wait for what i donno

i sleep to forget about it,

i sleep with tears and a clutch a on the sheets,

and alone in my heart, the skies stay blue, and happy,

every nite is another wait,

i am blind looking for the way..and losing it...

i am enjoying this...hehehe

i do..for what reason i dont know..maybe because i enjoy it....

i am alone o lord...kill me..release me..please....

please..i love all the people in my life....i do..but i want to go..

i want to go..